you shouldn't tell him anything he doesn't know either. there's nothing he can do anymore about what's going on back in our world. enjoy the time you have with him here.
[ it isn't the same type of relationship but she still understands where that feeling comes from. hayakawa may as well be a ghost, haunting the boy who killed him. ]
i made the deal before he showed up, but— yeah. it now heavily affects him.
i just don't want anyone else to get involved in our war. it's not a bad way to handle shit, making a deal with the devil, but i hate it. i feel like she has won somehow ...
denji, you did something many governments thought impossible. even I never thought she could be killed. she wouldn't consider making deals with you if she didn't have to as well.
when i see her, i remember begging her to spare my women. and how she didn't. that makes me angrier than how she controlled me.
[ She long ago accepted being a tool to be used by others, in the way any weapon is. But her girls didn't deserve to die. It was a mistake to bring them on the job. ]
[ there is something reassuring about her using the word 'anger'. a nice change from associating one single emotion, which is fear, with the control devil. ]
[ she should. if it were anyone else, quanxi would have their head. it wouldn't even be a thought - there would be blood. but she hasn't done anything at all. ]
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you shouldn't tell him anything he doesn't know either.
there's nothing he can do anymore about what's going on back in our world.
enjoy the time you have with him here.
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but
i'm not happy to see him.
it just hurts all over again.
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[ it isn't the same type of relationship but she still understands where that feeling comes from. hayakawa may as well be a ghost, haunting the boy who killed him. ]
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i also did something ... bad.
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does it involve hayakawa?
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i just don't want anyone else to get involved in our war. it's not a bad way to handle shit, making a deal with the devil, but i hate it. i feel like she has won somehow ...
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she wouldn't consider making deals with you if she didn't have to as well.
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what about you? how do feel about seeing her again?
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that makes me angrier than how she controlled me.
[ She long ago accepted being a tool to be used by others, in the way any weapon is. But her girls didn't deserve to die. It was a mistake to bring them on the job. ]
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do you want to hurt her back?
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I should. But I don't know.
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i'll handle it.
[ then again, quanxi didn't know what the 'deal' is ... ]
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ok.
how did you handle it last time?
[ The last thing she remembers was the fight at the graveyard. Then she woke up at Public Safety and learned that Makima was killed. ]
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by eating her.
[ you can kill a devil 100 times and they will come back, unless— well, you channel your inner chef and cannibalism. ]